
Not
knowing where to begin, that was the beginning.
Howard Nemerov in Journal of the Fictive Life
Not knowing where to start is the beginning;
not knowing where to go, continuance;
the end, a figment of imagination,
a product of the finite mind, a fluke
deduced by the reader, who sinisterly suspects
all things must end despite the lack of proof.
Consent?
if a star at any time might tell us: Now.
Howard Nemerov in The Consent
If
a star at anytime might tell us Now
as stars have done the leaves and have done you,
a great among the centurys great bards,
what use indeed have we to learn the lessons
taught by timeexcept that we have learned,
from Yeats and Frost and You, of Poetry,
at once a valued lesson learned and guarded
well against the stars and their morés.
your students cannot wander in a meadow
without wondring after amateurs;
cannot view a man and dog walking
without a sense of partnership; a mud
turtle without the bending grass; a jet
descending over the Lady in the Harbor
without a sense of you there in her torch.
We
try today, as you had done, to notice
the awesome things that matter least to some
and most to poets, and record the cycles
of those stars in their reversed abyss;
and we wonder at the easy pace
with which we all step out toward that Now,
and hope, in some perversion of the truth,
they have no certain target specified.
Moon Over Arlington
As silv’ry rays intrude on silent lanes
at Arlington, the stones define the cold
and endless rows of those who died in vain.
Here lie the bold, in death with nothing gained,
a shrouded consequence of all we sold
as silv’ry rays intrude on silent lanes.
Here lie the gentle ones, those whom the strain
of war so quickly turned from young to old
and endless rows of those who died in vain.
Here lie the ones who fled, their souls in twain,
their nerves in knots, afraid and uncontrolled
as silv’ry rays intrude on silent lanes.
Here lie the strong, the ones who fought the pain
in silence, family values to uphold
and endless rows of those who died in vain.
Eternally together lie the slain,
our sons and daughters, colorless and cold,
as silv’ry rays intrude on silent lanes
and endless rows of those who died in vain.
From Beyond the Masks (Central Ave Press, 2005)
To a War Protester
for J. Lynn Cutts
How odd that she should ask me for a poem
that might explain there were no enemies,
no heroes, and no villains in that war,
that underneath the uniforms were humans,
and no one on our side or on the other
knew hatred, spite, or righteousness — just fear.
And how should I begin? Should I say Faith
in god, country, and corps were stripped away
when Digger’s face exploded next to mine?
Should I describe the hot, incessant rain,
the mud that splattered up from falling men,
the M-16s that jammed with every round?
Can I, in adequate terms, hope to describe
the agony of pleading, bulging eyes
that knew my lies were nothing more? Can I
relate the sound of arms, legs, stomachs,
ripping off or open, and the feel
of hot, moist bits stinging my face?
Can I communicate the stench of fear,
the silence that precedes a concrete hell,
(one you can touch and one that touches you,
not the one the preacher talks about)
the taste of sweat that runs into your mouth,
the pus that coats your blistered, rotting feet?
I think not, but the hardest to convey
is that ride home, that flight out of Japan:
the leggy flight attendants (their sad eyes),
the absence of all fear, and then relief,
the tires screeching down, a jolt or two,
a hurried reluctance in mouthing last goodbyes.
The eyes negate the need for words, and then
the ramp! — America! — the scent of home,
the dream, the picket fence, the house, the job,
the girl, the kids, the moms, the dads, the dogs,
the cats, the bikes, the cars, and hair — but no:
someone throws blood and calls me Murderer.
How odd that she should ask me for a poem
that might explain there were no enemies,
no heroes, and no villains in that place,
that underneath the uniforms were humans,
just like those who carried protest signs.
How odd she didn’t know that on her own.
From Beyond the Masks (Central Ave Press, 2005)
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